Hilary had a major dental surgery last week. instead of it resolving she seemed to get worse and worse, and looking into her mouth on Day 6 we saw a large abscess had formed at the wound site. We scheduled an emergency appointment for the next morning, and waking early I began thinking about the Worst Case Scenario. I think training in medicine makes you all the more aware of what can go wrong….like MRSA infections eating her up and landing me in widowerhood.
Quieting my soul and tuning in to the Spirit in my spirit I began getting a truer perspective. Going straight to the big picture I thought about how at the end of Paul’s sermon in 1 Corinthians chapter 15 on the essential gospel and the centrality of Christ’s resurrection is the phrase,“….so that God may be all in all.” (1. Cor. 15:28) Pondering this truth I realized – that doesn’t leave a lot of room for bad or evil or fear or disappointment or sadness, and as I embraced this truth, I again entered gladly into His Shalom, trusting the Best Possible Outcome was assured in the end no matter how things went in this present ‘crisis.’
Hilary on waking seemed much improved. (It was after all her first good night’s sleep in a week!) and then as we drove to the appointment she said,
“I had a vivid dream just before waking that I clearly remember…….That’s unusual for me!”
“I was swimming in a calm sea, and before me was a very large floater. There were also enormous black rocks coming up from the sea. Then strangely I fell asleep while in the water, and when I awoke I realized I was on the far side of the rocks and needed to find my way back to land. I turned and saw in the distance the sun going down on the land. I began swimming toward it, using my legs and holding the large floater in front of me so it required less effort on my part. I experienced no anxiety throughout.”
I realized Hilary and I had received the same message from our Dad at the same time. For me it was through the medium of my thought processes, for Hilary it was through a dream.
In the dream she had seen the end of the story in the distance (the land). She was confident she would get there, and so did not need to be afraid. Falling asleep, will be the experience of most. Only those of the generation who are alive at Christ’s coming will not experience this. I then realized the large floater was FAITH…..something that we lay hold off and that grows bigger and bigger the longer we walk (or swim) with God and prove his faithfulness!
I recalled a verse that had stood out to me this morning, “In the same way that gold and silver are refined by fire, the Lord purifies your heart by the tests and trials of life.” (Prov.17:3)
The purified heart is the heart that can finally fully trust our heavenly Dad ….no matter what, because as ‘the sovereign Lord’ He has assured us that in the end it will be the Best Possible Outcome.
So at the close of a fiery week that ended on this year’s Father’s Day, I am hopefully more trusting of our heavenly Dad.
……and now also able to operate the clothes dryer….after 43 years of marriage : – )